Deciding… contemplating…

April 8th, 2014

This thing that is happening right now is making me think and analyze. I have been deciding what to keep and maintain, and what to let go. Admittedly, it is hard for me to let go of some things because I’ve been doing this for the past seven years now, actually, close to eight years. It has become a lifestyle for me and I just know that it will be very hard for me to just let go of this all.

Nakakalungkot lang talaga.

How I wish there was a warning that this will happen. I am aware that things will not last but this is just so sudden! This lord of the net is making things hard for us small bloggers. I really wish that time will come someone else bigger than them will topple them over and rule the net!

>_<




Changes in and out.

March 28th, 2014

I don’t like saying this because I am afraid to acknowledge thereby making it a reality but here goes… yes, I am burnt out! I think I have reached that point where I have done everything there is possible and there is nothing new for me to try anymore.

Sometimes you hit the point where you either change or self destruct.

I am feeling this way for the past several weeks now and I just refused to let it rule my being. There was work to do and that’s what I’ve been focusing on rather than this. But for the past couple of days, I’ve been thinking of nothing else but a change. It’s either that or I just might find myself spiraling down. And I don’t want that to happen!

Plus, I do believe that part of this change that is taking place in me is the fact that something has changed in my current work. This lord of the net is making bloggers’ lives miserable with their updates and it is affecting me as well. Instead of waiting what’s to happen with their next update, I thought I’d be proactive and make some changes myself. This is far better than waiting for the ax to fall which is what will happen sooner or later. I can feel it just as I am sure some bloggers out there feel it, too.

I am making a big leap of faith again. I am praying harder than ever for things to work out as I planned. And for better things to await at the other side of the fence.

Still… happy Friday!

:mwah




Business ideas in my head.

March 20th, 2014

This idea has been running inside my head for weeks. I want to have my own business empire! Even a small one will do. I want businesses related to food and drinks, books/publishing, and clothes. I have specific plans for each and if I only have the capital to open one, I would have done so in a heartbeat!

I will use flyer prints and make sure everyone in the vicinity of my business will know about what I have to offer. I will also make sure that everything is controlled in the first year of operations, more so than the succeeding years. And so many things I can apply that I learned from when I was employed in the same industry.




Mentally exhausted.

March 19th, 2014

tired

The truth is that I’ve been feeling bone-achingly tired the past few weeks now. I think it’s more of a mental exhaustion than anything else. I have been working even on weekends and I know it’s catching up, all the extra hours I put in when I should be resting and sleeping.

I am not complaining. Let’s be clear on that! In fact, I am grateful for the work pouring in. It’s a continuous prayer in my heart for me to get more work because that means there will be more income for me and my love ones. It is also a way for me not to go back to the old world where I used to belong to.

exhausted

But the exhaustion… I need to do something about it. I am bone-tired! I feel like I am burnt out! Deep in my heart I know that I’ve exhausted myself beyond my limits and this is what I have to pay for it.

I just wish I have the luxury of going a year-long Sabbatical of sorts…

:sigh




Elegant-looking lady.

March 18th, 2014

I wish I can also pull off wearing pearl necklaces like this elegant-looking lady I know. When I wear one, I feel like I am trying too hard to look decent. Ha-ha!

Truth is that, I am a wash and wear kinda girl. I wear casual clothes more than any other type of clothing. I remember back when I was still a corporate girl, I looked forward to Fridays so I could stop wearing business attires and go back to my casual wear.

But these days, I am thinking of wearing those corporate attires again. It crosses my mind one time too many in a day and that means…




More water!

March 18th, 2014

CBTL Tumbler

One of my best friends gave me a tall tumbler with straw. It is now my daily companion while working. I need more water to cleanse my system and that’s what I use.

It is equivalent to 1 liter, if I am not mistaken. I drink lots of water everyday to make sure I flush out the toxins in my body. I also drink lots of water because I am afraid of getting diabetes and kidney diseases.




Life of sounds.

March 18th, 2014

All his life he is surrounded with sounds. His parents are both musicians. His father plays the guitar while his mom is a classical piano artist. Both of them made sure that he knows he is expected to live a life of sounds, too. So early on, he chose guitar as his musical instrument.

He used to play only the acoustic guitar. These days, though, he is more into the gibson les paul standard faded electric guitar than anything else. He also plays the piano now as well as the drums and the saxophone.

You can truly say that their house is filled with sounds every single day. And they love it!