March 5th, 2014
My sister and I were talking about a stay-cation. The place need not be outside the city. It could be a cheap hotel somewhere near, we really don’t care. Just as long as we can stay there for the weekend, away from the neighborhood we are in now, away from the noise, and just an overall change in environment, that would be totally fine with us.
But I also want some time alone. I want complete silence even for a day or two. I want that for myself.
Growing up in a large family has its advantages and disadvantages. One of the disadvantages is not having your own bedroom and being surrounded by noise all the time. Of course, I am not complaining about my family. I am used to sharing and the noise but there are days when I also want to be on my own, away from everybody else, away from the chaos and the mess.
Well, if I can go somewhere now to have my alone time, I would do so.
March 2nd, 2014
The glyph hard drive contains so many special memories recorded by the couple when they were still together. Five years. That’s a very long time with a couple who are both in the limelight and surrounded by so many temptations. Everyone thought they’d make it, but they doubled over from the pressure of their work.
But, as with everything, the special memories will linger on. They would meet from time to time to talk about the properties they invested in together. They are also sharing custody of their beloved Labrador dog. There is still a big chance that the two will get back together. If only one of them will swallow their pride.
March 2nd, 2014
I was inside the bathroom, thoughts come and go. New York came to mind and my botched attempt to work there in my early 20′s. I didn’t get a visa and I got discouraged easily. I went to work for local companies and one bad boss derailed my climb up the corporate ladder.
I don’t regret the fact that I stopped working as a corporate rat about eight years ago. I enjoyed every minute of my time outside the confines of a traditional office. Yes, it was harder work for me especially during the period of the US recession but the good Lord always provided. The truth is that I would love to continue working freelance like this for the rest of my life, just as long as work will continue pouring in. And I do hope it will.
But, last night, I thought about the ‘what-ifs’. What if I didn’t give up too easily and continued my quest to work in New York, or anywhere else in the world? What if I didn’t let one bad boss derail my climb up the corporate ladder? What if I continued working as a corporate rat and made this freelance work of mine a weekend job instead? What if, what if, what if…???
My sister, R, keeps on telling me that she really plans to lose weight, go back to working but not here. She wants to go abroad to seek a greener pasture. And it is making me think not only twice, thrice, but a number of times every now and then about going back to the corporate world myself. If given a chance, I would also love to go abroad not to live there indefinitely but to work and save so I can buy a brand new house and lot for me and the family and at least two cars for us. I also want to save up for the future for my dad, my younger sister, R, and me. And so many more plans that I know will only be carried out if I have more than enough in my pocket.
I can now safely admit to myself that I regret giving up my New York dreams easily. Who knows what could have happened if I pursued it relentlessly? What could have happened if I applied again and again until I got a US visa? Or what if I didn’t stop being a corporate rat?
So many what-ifs but I know I can only move forward. I can only choose to follow one direction and make it the best path for me. What that would be I will decide in the next few days. I am praying hard for the decision to be the right one. I can decide to continue doing freelance work and forget about the corporate world. But for the past few weeks now, I’m leaning more and more into going back to the old world I once a part of.
Please help me pray for my future.
March 1st, 2014
This should serve as a reminder and inspiration to me to keep on writing no matter what! I know that one of these days, my dream of becoming a novelist will come true. For now, I should just keep on writing and work harder to come up with a great story.
February 16th, 2014
While I am trying to get myself out of this rut I am stuck in, I am helping out a friend of mine get back on track with this new business he is entering into. I’ve been online for the past two hours helping him out checking machinetools.com for welding equipment. He will open a vulcanizing shop this coming week. It is actually the very same shop that his father used to have but this time around he will also open a car shop beside it.
He got depressed when his father passed away. He was led astray but a seemingly ‘concerned friend’ that he met somewhere. It was a good thing that his mother was able to get to him on time or his life would have been wasted for nothing!
February 13th, 2014
I am badly in need of inspiration and motivation. I am stuck in a rut again and I can’t seem to get myself out of it! I am still writing. I am still reading a bit. But there is just a gloom I can’t seem to shake off no matter what I do.
I don’t know what this is. Maybe, my mind is just exhausted. Or maybe I do really need a new environment and this one I have now is no longer working for me. I need something and I hope I will find out what it is so that I can lift this gloom enveloping me.
And I do hope to be out of this rut very, very soon!
I need to complete more mini projects within the next three months.
January 11th, 2014
Whenever I see a guitar, like a man playing an acoustic the other day, I remember him. More than words. He would play it to me back then. And it never failed to make me like him a bit more.
Things didn’t turn out the way I thought it would be and, fast forward to this day, I guess I am still not done liking him. A part of me probably will always like him. He’s the one who got away! Ha-ha! Sigh.
And I do believe that the song More Than Words will always be associated with him. In my heart, he will always be that guy…