I have been crazy about pixels for some time now. I love how it looks, so cute and so clean. I was browsing through some sites offering wordpress themes that have pixels in it. And I came upon Cosmic Handmade. When I saw this theme, Rainbow Petal, I just know I need to have this for this blog of mine.

Like it?

So she has resorted to lurking hahaha… should have known! Eekkk

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One weekend at my sister’s school where she’s teaching Special Education. It was their fair and this was the giant slide which was the main attraction among kids.

Want to try it?

Have a blessed week ahead everyone!

I am not really fond of Friendster. In all honesty, kaya lang ako nagbukas ng account dun dahil sa eagerness kong makita at maka-connect uli sa mga dating kaibigan. In fact, puro high school friends ang hinanap ko talaga. When I already connected with those people I sorely miss, I kinda stopped opening my account, unless I have to greet someone, send a message to someone, I want to be updated with the latest photos from my close friends and when I get a message from anyone of them.

I got a message from a friend’s ex-boyfriend greeting me a belated happy holidays. Di ba when you open your Friendster account, ang una mong makikita is the summary of the latest updates? May nakita akong name dun. N.T. I know an old best bud’s middle name starts with T. And her eldest’ name starts with N. I checked it out and lo and behold, it’s her! My old best bud whom I haven’t spoken to in ages!

Ang masama kasi sa akin, whenever I see someone from my past, parang may bukal ng emosyon na nabubuksan sa akin. Yun bang tipong sobrang sad na nanghihinayang na hindi mo maintindihan. I have so many what might have beens sa buhay ko. And this best bud of mine… daming what could have been.

We could have been real best friends. Ang kaso mo, I was stubborn, snob, bully and sutil. It’s true. Kaya nga when you ask high school friends and classmates, they will surely tell you na I was a bully back then. Friendly but if I didn’t like you, get out of my way! Tipong ganon. Back in 2nd year high, 3 lang naman kaming uber close talaga. S, J and me. Tapos dumating ang mga bagong classmates that I became close to. Tim, My, Che, Jem, Jing, Shen, Issang… S got jealous. Uso sa high school ang selosan sa friends di ba? Hehehe… Eh ako naman kasi, di porke best friend kita, dapat tayo na lang ang friends. I befriended them and we founded a group. S felt left out. Dun na nagsimula ang lahat. Little did I know na yung crack na nagsimula doon sa isolation na yun will slowly break our friendship apart. Sayang. I miss her sa totoo lang. She was an ally. And she was a good friend to me naman. But because I got my own group, she went out of her way to join another one. Lalong lumaki yung crack ng bond namin.

We stayed friends until college. But what little piece of bond we had left was not really enough to sustain the friendship. Siguro may chance pa had she not taken drugs. J and I were reaching out but she shut us out instead.

We reconnected when my mom got sick. It was 2004, I believe. I got hold of her phone number and I called her up. She was glad I was able to find her and we talked and she even visited my mom in the hospital. Nagulat mom and dad ko. Tapos she invited me to her daughter’s birthday party. Kaso I was not able to go. Alam mo, andun yung what if I was able to go? May chance pa kayang ma-save friendship namin? Natuloy kaya yung reconnection namin?

Sayang talaga. We’d been friends for so long. And we’d been through a lot…

I really miss her. And I am overwhelmed with sadness right now.

For this blog anyway…
Thank you, tita Liza for giving this award to me.

You cheer me up, too!

Let me pass on this award to my fellow bloggers…

Reyna Elena
GBex
Rebecca
Maiylah
Bluepanjeet

Have a nice day everyone!

Notice when you hear certain songs you can’t help but sing along? Like right now, I am listening to 96.3 WRock and the song being played is Through the Fire by Chaka Khan. Hay, sarap kantahin! Another song that I really like to sing is Amy Grant’s That’s what love is for…

Here’s Through the fire…

And here’s That’s what love is for…

Ganda ano? Sarap kumanta sa banyo! Hehehe

Kayo, what songs can make you sing?

When I was in college, I was in love with the word “Shreds”. Yan ang codename ko lagi. All my friends know that. I write my short stories and mini novels using that codename. Kaya kahit maiwan kong nakakalat sa classroom ang notebook ko, wala namang makakakilala kung sino may sulat nung ma-emo na story hehehe

Eto naman ang laging nasa cover ng mga notebooks ko…

The heart has its reasons in which reason knows nothing.

O di ba ang drama?

Napahamak yata ako ng quote na yan. Isinapuso ko talaga! Tsk tsk… kaya ayun, namuntikan na akong nahulog sa isang bitag na kung natuloy, nasira na ang lahat ng pangarap ko. Thank God someone slapped me and woke me up from that hallucination.

Eto naman ang lagi kong iniisip whenever I change jobs.

LEO: Always being of service to people could cramp your style considerably.

That was my horoscope siguro 5 years ago pa. I wrote it down kasi naisip ko parang totoo. About 2 years ago, something terrible happened to me sa isang company na napasukan ko. Then I remembered jotting that horoscope down. That’s when I realized that being too chummy with everyone can be a liability along the way. I was backstabbed. I had a staff, my assistant, that was supposed to be fired because of poor performance. I appealed to my boss to give her another chance. Ayaw na nga nung boss ko but naawa talaga ako kasi iniyakan ako. Yun pala, that girl will be among those who backstabbed me. Sakit. Until now, whenever I see her face sa Friendster, nararamdaman ko pa rin yung galit and at the same time naiiyak ako kasi I treated her as a friend. And I saved her. Yun pala ang sukli ganon. Hay…

Bakit nga ba ako nagre-reminisce ng kung anik-anik? Kasi naglinis ako ng cabinet ko hehehe… I saw some old notes and ito yung isa sa mga nakita ko. I thought I would blog about this piece of paper.

Ayan na nga…